Sunday, October 3, 2010

When you never let go

Once upon a time you thought you were the most honest, the bigger (wo)man
And so you went ahead with what you felt obligated to do, out of integrity.
Then you saw everything you had dealt with silently for years come crashing down into your face.
You felt horrible, you felt low; felt downright regretful for the first time in your life.

But what can you do when once upon a time is gone by and some of the things you said were true? And the only thing you regret about saying it is that you didn't say enough? Or in the right way? What if what you want is still of honesty, integrity, but the only way to get it is to go back into the future and go deeper? In order to go farther. Or at least walk alongside each other on the highway, across the double yellow line? Respecting but not expecting. Is that possible?

Once upon a time you made a decision.
The great thing about this life is that you can always make a different decision next time.
The great thing and the worst.
Oh what should I choose now?

3 comments:

Amanda said...

This hit me.

You're one of the best people I know :)

Amanda said...

Hey McKilky - you should follow my new blog! Out with the old in with the new!
(ha ha i'm trying to add more followers...:)

Amanda said...

it's been too long since you have blogged!