Tuesday, May 13, 2008
..."i have no idea how to express my care and concern for him except to be praying for him and of course, talk with him whenever he is up for it. i don't think i'll get an opportunity to do that until later this month and i am not sure what will happen then. and i've been telling god i don't even want to know, really. all i want to know is what he wants me to do right now, here, in this day, moment by moment in my doubt and faith, pain and joy, love and confusion. what he wants my response to be, my heart to be. HIS, i know that without question. he has created me to shine for this moment, this situation. all i have to do is let go of my expectations and grab hold of me in my purest form, for He is in that through and through. "