Sunday, October 5, 2008

brazen colors

life is in my face right now.
i am hyper-sensitive to it,
to it all
it seems.

the colors are brilliant
blatant
brazen
bold and bright
beautiful.
borderline 
bodacious.

conversations infused with life and meaning and things i never saw before.
understanding permeates sentences i have overlooked.
zingers shoot from the fingers of thoughts i hear in a tense i could not comprehend before,
before.
before the you of today shoved them in front of my eyes, up my nose and into my gaping mouth.
pleasant and disturbing all at once.
the love you have for me in every moment shows itself clearly at every opportunity. i can see.
i can see!
i see you!
i see something of what you see!
the life you promised.  the pain i have felt before, the beauty and the ugly intermingling to create this reality of a day.  every day.  but then i see something new.
and it
it
is 
you.
in a aqua hue i have never lived in,
until now.
let me grab it with 
the
vim
and
vigor
.
that i do with everything else.

some do not understand
the way my heart is made.  the way i am.
but then.
they do and i just have never let them say
my heart
say
what i am to them.
for my heart is blatent.
my heart is bold.
brazen and beautiful.
this heart you have crafted in me father?
it is
it is
is
the love
that 
you 
have 
for 
me.

aqua hues i have never seen, never lived.
i
love
living
you.

let it be so, and let it be so.

2 comments:

amber lainey said...

lovelovelove.

Cathryn said...

HA! you were up late! or early .. well it's just after 4 am so guess i am.......
Derek and Amy are coming for Sunday breakfast (biscuits and gravy thang- and so is Jenna i think.. she just got back from the UK) and we were gonna vision a bit for next Saturdays shin dig.. lemmy ask 'em tomorrow morning (or in a few hours as the case maybe) to open the doors to another visionary ! You might possiably be up for ... what's turning into a big breakfast?
ps. wow just figured out that under doodles i can leave a comment! some days i'm just slow on the uptake! I'll call ya tomorrow!
xo cat