staying

leaving is out for now. 

which it tough.  

could have gone back to the mountains and worked this summer, but i felt rooted here.  like, i shouldn't pick up and go even though I could have, easily.  

so, here i sit.  

and wait.  

and am reminded constantly that i am a believer of the unseen, of the invisible yet tangible beyond belief.  

i am a liver of life in the only one i know who has ever truly lived.  

i am following one who loves me more than i can ever understand and always holds me in his hand even when i feel like i can't take anymore of this harsh life, because it is.  

but it is also beautiful.  

all so beautiful.